Tuesday, April 25, 2006

rally rally here i come

check out my latest post over at Jewschool about:
  • April 24, Armenian Genocide Day.

  • 28 Nisan / April 24-25, Yom Hashoah V'hagevurah (the Memorial Day for the Holocaust and Heroism)

  • The Save Darfur Rally this Sunday, April 30 in Washington, DC

  • here's one of my favorite photos from the sign making/havdallah party i had on my roof a few years back i preparation for the march opposing the republican national convention, april 2004 (the hebrew sign on the right translates to "justice, justice you shall pursue"):


    here's me with a fabulous jew-crew at the march for women's lives in DC, april 2004:


    dc, i'm coming to you in just FIVE DAYS.

    Friday, April 21, 2006

    SHMINI: A D'var Torah for this Week

    Below is the d'var Torah I'm giving tonight here at my student pulpit in St. Croix. Enjoy!

    Friday, April 20, 2006
    Parshat Shmini
    Jewish Community of St. Croix

    What does a community do when they have put all of their energy, their heart and soul, into building a structure that everyone will benefit from? Do you remember a time you attended a dedication ceremony for a local building or a community playground? What about a new addition to your house or office? I have a strong memory of being nine years old when a community built playground was dedicated in my hometown. There was a huge ceremony which finally ended with a ribbon cutting, at which point I ran to my favorite section – the swinging monkey bars. What an exhilarating rush I felt to be the FIRST PERSON ever to swing on those bars. For years and years, every time I would return to the park, I would look at those bars and think – “I was the first one to swing on those!” Participating in the moment of dedication, being among the first to touch those brand new bars – it was an exciting and important moment.

    The most important and extensive building project in the Torah is the building of the mishkan, which was the portable sanctuary that contained all the instruments and furniture necessary for the ancient sacrificial rituals. Just a few weeks ago we closed the book of Exodus with its completion. The book of Leviticus opened with God giving instructions for its use. The last Torah portion went though the details of the seven day dedication ceremony for the sanctuary. Additionally, Moses, who has been learning how to divide up his leadership roles by delegating various tasks, is now training his brother Aaron, as well as Aaron’s four sons, to be kohanim, or priests.

    This week we read Parshat Shimini – literally “The eighth” – referring to the eighth day of the dedication ceremony. It opens with great excitement and elaborate ritual slaughtering. The climax is at the end of Chapter 9:

    Moses and Aaron went into the Tent of Meeting, and came out, and blessed the people: and the glory of G-d appeared to all the people.

    And there came a fire out from before G-d, and consumed the ascent offering and the fat [of the other offerings] upon the Altar. And all the people saw, and sang out, and fell on their faces.

    The next chapter opens with the following two verses:
    "And Aaron's sons, Nadab and Abihu, each took his pan, put fire in them, and placed incense upon it, and they brought before the Lord foreign fire, which He had not commanded them. And fire went forth from before the Lord and consumed them, and they died before the Lord."

    Why were Nadav and Abihu killed – right in the middle of this inauguration ceremony?

    In response to the incident, And Moses says to Aaron: "This is it that which G-d spoke, saying: I will be sanctified in those who are close to Me..." (10:3)

    Based on these words, perhaps the death was not a punishment at all. Rather, he sons of Aharon were on such a high spiritual level that they could not function in this world; their souls were thus separated from their bodies and they ascended to heaven so that they could be closer to God. Though these are the words that God speaks to Moses and Aaron, I do not recommend saying these words to anyone who has just lost a family member or friend.

    Rashi, an 11th century commentator, who is well-known for his logical analysis, attempts to find the answer in the context of the narrative.

    Just as the commandment to not worship foreign idols exists in proximity to the golden calf incident, Rashi links the next closest commandment – indeed, just a few verses later, God commands Aaron, "Do not drink wine that will lead to intoxication." Therefore, Rashi writes, “We know from this that they died precisely on account of the wine.”

    Based on some verses later in the Torah, Rashi propsoses that: Nadav and Avihu died because of Aaron's making of the Golden Calf, since Moses later states: "And against Aaron did G-d verily rage to destroy him; and I prayed also for Aaron at that time" (Deuteronomy 9:20). Moses' prayer was halfway effective, so that two died and two remained alive.

    One Midrash or ledgend, states that Nadav and Avihu resented the authority that Moshe had invested in their father Aaron, asking: “When will these old men pass on so that we may be the nation’s new leaders?” God thus struck them down in punishment for this sin.

    While these answers of blaming people for Nadav and Abihu’s death may have satisfied some, I cannot accept a God who strikes down two young priests in training just for any reason. Though I do believe in some sort of legal punishment, I also believe that Judaism is a religion that believes in forgiveness and repentance – not divine zapping during public ceremonies.

    I wish to present one last interpretation of this story.


    Rashbam, Rashi’s grandson, says that Nadav and Avihu did no more than enter the holy of holies, the innermost chamber of the sanctuary, at the moment the divine fire descended. While some commentators refuse to see anything in the Torah as an accident, and evidence that their death was an accident is also not quite comforting, I believe that Rashbam’s method of showing us how this chain of events took place teaches an even broader lesson that we can all take with us.

    As I mentioned earlier, a climactic moment precedes the death of Nadav and Abihu. One of the verses I read before was:

    "And there came a fire out from before G-d, and consumed the ascent offering and the fat [of the other offerings] upon the Altar."

    Just two verses later, at the start of chapter 10, we read:

    “And there came a fire out from before G-d, and consumed them.”

    Since both cases use the exact set of words, “And there came a fire out from before G-d, and consumed”, Rashbam claims that perhaps these two events happened simultaneously, thus being a case of resumptive repetition. In other words, it is up to the reader to notice that the same fire that burnt up Moses and Aaron’s offering at the end of chapter 9, also accidentally struck Nadav and Abihu.


    Though we cannot erase the fact that the text describes Nadav and Abihu as having “brought before the Lord foreign fire, which He had not commanded them,” Rashbam gives us a crucial shifting of perspective that puts the scene in a whole new light.

    How often do we jump to conclusions or act overly judgmental without much investigation? How often are we disappointed that others do not give us the benefit of the doubt, looking favorably upon us in a difficult situation?


    (Bavli Shabbat 127b)

    The sages teach: 
One who judges his friend favorably will be judged favorably. 
The following story is told: 
A man went down from the Upper Gallilee and was hired as a worker for a landowner in the south for three years.

    On the day before Yom Kippur the worker came to his boss and said, “Give me my wages so I can support my wife and children.” He replied, “I do not have them.”

    He said to him, “Give me produce.” He replied, “I have none.” He said to him, “Give me land.” “I have none.” “Give me animals.” “I have none.” “Give me pillows and covers.” “I have none.”

    The worker slung his things over his shoulder and went home frustrated.

    After the festivals the employer took the worker’s wages in hand, and along with them loaded three donkeys -- one full of food, one with drink, and another with tasty foods -- and went to his worker’s house.

    After they ate and drank he gave the worker his wages.

    He said to him, “When you asked me for your wages and I told you I have no money what did you suspect me of?” “I said perhaps you came across inexpensive merchandise and bought it.”

    “And when you said to me to give you animals and I replied that I have none, what did you suspect me of?” “I said perhaps they were hired out.”

    “And when you said to me to give you land and I told you I had none, what did you suspect?” “I said perhaps it was leased out to others.”

    “And when I told you that I had no produce what did you suspect? “I said perhaps it was not tithed.”

    “And when I told you that I had no pillows or blankets what did you suspect? “”I said perhaps he donated all of his property to Heaven.”

    He said, “I swear that is what happened. I vowed off all of my property because of my son Hyrkanus who did not go to learn Torah. When I went to my friends in the south they annulled all of my vows. As for you -- the same way you judged me favorably, the Omnipresent should judge you favorably.”


    Even in Judaism we are innocent until proven guilty. Though we should still use our logic and reasoning to look at a situation thoroughly, we must always remind ourselves to give the benefit of the doubt, just as the landowner in the story. We all want to get the benefit of the doubt, so doesn’t it make sense to routinely give the benefit of the doubt? It’s a gift that keeps on giving.

    Shabbat shalom.

    Sunday, April 16, 2006

    this will make you laugh. i promise!!

    if you're in nyc, or you can make it there by monday night, don't miss the fabulous, the sexy, the talented, the hilarious Late Night Players playing at on of NYC's top comedy club's, Carolines, located just north of Times Square - B'way between 49 and 50th. BONUS: And...if you RSVP in advance by calling 212 757 4100 and mentioning "Late Night Players" you can go for only FIVE BUCKS!!!!!!

    Tuesday, April 11, 2006

    every animal product is made of corn!

    ...you can still devour them on passover, but you may not want to the rest of the year. CORN:
    "Corn is what feeds the steer that becomes the steak. Corn feeds the chicken and the pig, the turkey and the lamb, the catfish and the tilapia and, increasingly, even the salmon…. The eggs are made of corn. The milk and cheese and yogurt, which once came from dairy cows that grazed on grass, now typically come from Holsteins that spend their working lives tethered to machines, eating corn."
    - via aldaily.com

    Monday, April 10, 2006

    zeek and passover at jewschool.com

    check out my recent posts about zeek and passover over at jewschool. you'll be glad you did!

    i am now on my last break of the semester. four more days of class, two oral exams, one final, and one seminar paper...then graduation may 18! it's all about may 18...

    Thursday, March 23, 2006

    exactly what i needed

    Thank you to Robbie Gringras for your entertaining and educational performance at JTS this evening. The music, the stories, your ability to teach us the importance of love, sensitivity, and interconnectedness of the Jewish people - thank you. You bring a sincere love of israel that others born abroad can relate to - even if some of us may be more observant and less zionist than you are.

    During the discussion after the show, Robbie articulated the exact thing i needed to hear at this moment in my life, and it rang lound and clear: Jews believe that there is a way about arguing that is sacred - a machlochet l'shem shamayim (an arguement for the sake of heaven). Americans especially are too afrait of conflict - we are so afraid of stepping on each others toes, we create barriers and separate ourselves out. Yet a true community is not made up of people who agree on everything. Rather, a community is created over what people argue about. By arguing with another, we show we care, that we want to understand, and that we value the other. Blind agreement does not show committment; it shows apathy.

    Finally, on the topic of having a relationship with the State of Israel, and all world Jewry, Robbie reminded all of us that the Jewish world can no longer pretend that we are not connected. Even if we don't understand.

    Okay it's time for this Shamir to get out there! Live the journey! Be the ball! (Huh?)

    Friday, March 17, 2006

    "Cutting Down the Shoots"

    Ariel Beery gives a fascinating explanation of the obscure phrase and Elisha Ben Abuya's Platonic philosophy. Assimilation is nothing new, folks.

    Shabbat Shalom!

    Tuesday, March 14, 2006

    that tzur mishelo tune

    e was right. we all sing it wrong!. thanks to ZT for the tip.

    [update] oh crap and that lecha dodi tune is off too...

    Monday, March 13, 2006

    Purim tonight!!!

    Don't know where to go for megillah reading this year (and live in NYC)? Now, you don't have to choose. Storahtelling, with Zeek Magazine and Jewish Women Watching bring you a crazy parade up Broadway that will include music, singing, chanting, and surprise giveaways. If you can't make it for the parade, then definitely join us for the party afterward. Here's all the info:

    DATE: Monday, March 13, 2006—Erev Purim, Adar 13, 5766
    SCHEDULE: (times estimated)
    6:00pm PROMPT —JCC, 334 Amsterdam Ave. at 76th Str.
    6:45—Ansche Chesed, 251 West 100th St.
    7:45—B’nai Jeshurun Adult’s Service, 86th St. and West End Ave.
    8:45—Carlebach Shul, 305 West 79th St. (Between West End and Riverside)
    10:00—Crossroads (a funky bar, formerly Raccoon Lounge), 480 Amsterdam Ave at 83rd St. [no cover!]

    JOIN US IN COSTUME (Think Brigade - Putting the Fun in Fundamentalism…)

    For Rebbetzin Hadassah Gross' Megilla Guerilla Brigade March 2006 PuriManifesto,

    I Am Seattle

    Lots of love to my cousin's the Moore family out in Seattle.
    Take the quiz:
    Which American City Are You?

    Seattle
    Your dark exterior masks a caffeine driven activism. You'll take up a cause and you'll get ugly to advance it.

    happy birthday to me!

    well computer is still in the shop. they are waiting for a new something board or board of something - they do not know when i will have it back. luckily for me, both my birthday and purim are taking place during this crazy computer-less time. below are some of the highlights from last thursday's big celebration:

    chillin with the newly engaged couple


    love it when the family comes!

    am i attracted to beards or are beards attracted to me?


    yza and i surrounded by men who manage to be hot without beards


    big bear hug with nd and ns


    "one love, one gulp, let's get together with ys..."

    Thursday, March 09, 2006

    Good news, so far

    According to my buddies at the Mac store, they were able to recover all of my data before sending it in for repair. Wahoo! The repair center sent me an email today to let me know that they are waiting for a part before they can repair it. In the meantime, everyone should read: Rabbi Zalman Schachter-Shalomi's A parable on the state of the Jewish mythic world after my hard drive crashed.

    Sunday, March 05, 2006

    please say a prayer for my laptop

    [fyi i am writing this post from the sexy grey/blue dell of my roommate. thanks, ns.]

    on friday morning, march 3 i looked over and my laptop had shut herself down. so i plugged her in and booted her up again. she seemed to be fine. then i left her alone for a few minutes while i did a few things in the kitchen. when i came back, she was off again. a strange smoky smell was coming out of the vents in the back. i tried turning her on again. i tried hitting all the keys. nothing.

    after many phone calls, many waits on hold to bad music, and the eventual trip down to the mac soho store, i put my laptop in the hands of a mac genius (i'm not making that title up) named peter. even though i have a backup at home (thanks mom and dad for the external hard drive, and thanks mobius for telling me to get one), i still don't trust myself to put it all back on my computer, so i told peter to, if possible, download the contents of my hard drive to a server at the store before sending it out to be repaired.

    it was such a difficult day. as much as i keep feeling guilty to comparing the crashing of my computer to losing a person - that is ultimately what i am going through. the metaphor is somewhere between being dumped and losing someone to illness. thoughts in my head: "i should have treated my laptop with more respect. i should have deleted more unneeded files. i should have backed her up more regularly. i shouldn't have dragged her around so much. perhaps then she would be okay now."

    another thought that came to my head is that of my being punished for stam overusing my computer. not literally overusing, as in a laptop cannot take that many hours per day (though that is possible), but me, as a person in the world - perhaps i spend too much of my waking hours on my laptop. now that she is gone (temporarily), i have some time to sit and think about her - what do i really need her for? why would i spend so many hours on her? what of that was worthwhile productive work and what was lounging on the couch and playing around, reading blogs, iming, diddling?

    as much as this whole thing has been a disaster, i cannot help but view it as a blessing in disguise to remind me that this is a good time to chill out, take a break from dating my laptop, focus on my studies and just make the best of it.

    but in the meantime, i ask all of you to learn from my situation...
    1. back up your hard drive. a cd is not enough; spend the $100 to get an external hard drive so you can make a rebootable version of your computer. do it today!!!
    2. take some time to think about what you really need your computer for. perhaps your daily calendar would be eaisier on paper? perhaps you don't need 5 email accounts? maybe it's time to get some of those photos printed out so you can share the hard copies with family and friends anytime.

    ...and please please please say a prayer my laptop comes back as good as new. (and that i will deserve to get her back having learned my lesson)

    thank you.

    Monday, February 27, 2006

    Last day on the Island: Swimming with dogs and Snorkeling

    Sunday afternoon JL and I took his dogs Billy (basset hound) and Julian (white with brown spots mutt) to a state park on the water called "Salt River." Billy has had minimal swimming experience in a freshwater river, but neither of them had done any real swimming in the ocean.

    At first, they test the water:


    Billy jumps right in!



    (only later on when JL and I were in the water as well did both of them swim all the way out to us, stop for a break by leaning on us, and swim back to shore. absolutely adorable!)

    here's the view of salt river.


    this was a gorgeous rock made up of a rainbow of colored rocks all stuck together with sandstone.


    snorkeling shamir! we only had to swim out a short distance to see beautiful coral with hundreds of fish swimming by right under our noses. it was so relaxing to just float on the surface with my mask on watching the scene below. really, who needs TV?

    Sunday, February 26, 2006

    night out on an island...take two!

    Last night, JL and I went out to a fabulous outdoor bistro called "Savant." Though we didn't have ocean views this time (terrible, I know; how do i put up with it?), we did have a full clear sky of stars. I had a fabulous grilled mahi-mahi and a very tropical coconut/pinapple drink.

    Coconut Saga: A story in pictures

    You have to imagine that I have never, ever seen a coconut on a tree, let alone a fresh one on the ground, let alone eating a freseh coconut that came from a tree that I met myself! I was overjoyed to hold it in my arms and eventually take bite after bit of its sweet goodness. Pictured below are AB and her mom RB who hosted me during my stay on the island. Coconuts forever!

    Meeting the tree and taking one of her babies. (I can't seem to get it to rotate; I'll fix it later)


    Giving some love to the baby. So beautiful...I want to take her home. But I don't want to get arrested. Time to eat fresh coconut!


    I stand there terrified...what are you doing? Smashing baby's head??!??!?


    Throwing her on the ground! Ouch!


    CRACK! Smashing her open! But she is leaking something wet...


    Umm, this coconut is delicious...


    ...perhaps Wendy wants a bite?


    After peeling away all the skin and hairs, I make it into a coconut-cone. My dad would love this!

    Saturday, February 25, 2006

    a woman's gotta kayak...


    the ocean through a palm tree


    my first jump in the pool


    so we forgot to take a photo while i was still in the water...looks real, no?


    sunset


    Thursday, February 23, 2006

    a night out on the island

    if i wasn't ironic enough last december when i used a disney princess special dvd to practice my princess voice for the kodesh kingdom shabbat storytelling, then coming to an island called "St. Croix" which literally means "Saint Cross," surely counts.

    the island is 80 square miles, has 60,000 residents, 200 churches, 1 mosque and 1 synagogue (and one black hebrews congregation that meets on saturdays at their restaurant).

    going to see JL tonight was just what i needed. after i found parking on the side of one of many tiny streets in the former dutch fortress neighborhood turned funky downtown area, i began searching for 'the mix.' the guy who gave me directions said: "walk down until you reach the water, and take a left on the boardwalk, you'll see it straight ahead." it was just gorgeous - imagine, a restaurant right on the water that you need to walk down the boardwalk to get to! also amazing on an island that has no sidewalks in rural areas has copius boardwalks by the shore.

    Here's JL and his buddy S jamming out. They played a mix of jazz standards and originals. I drank overpriced lemonade and flipped through tourist info guides while sitting on the couch:

















    JL and I got to chill out a bit afterward and catch up. we are standing in front of something that looks like a silo but was once used for sugar, which used to be a major export from St. Croix.

    arrival to the island

    what to expect when you land on this tropical island...
    -complimentary ice cold punch at the airport
    -sunny skies
    -the ocean in every direction
    -palm trees palm trees palm trees (and sea grape...and a bunch of others)
    -the best reggae music station "in the world"
    -82 during the day and "cool" (70) at night
    -close to normal cell phone service (if you have sprint or cingular)


    and...
    -everyone drives on the left
    -gas is inexpensive (thanks to 6th largest oil refinery in the world located on the island, hevensa which gets all its oil from south america)
    -the place i'm staying has wireless internet, a pool, two cats, two dogs, three birds...and i'm sure i'll run into some more pets somewhere


    so now i'm...
    -drinking cranberry juice
    -about to take a nap
    -psyched to go see JR play tonight at "The Mix," a semi-upscale restaurant on the pier (read: ocean views)

    dawn and dusk lounge on the patio:


    wendy the dog who looks like a cat (and that's why i love her):

    Tuesday, February 21, 2006

    singing to yourself

    there are two kinds of singing to yourself:

    1. you are singing to yourself but you don't know it. when you realize it, it hits you that you are in a super positive, excited, perhaps even giddy mood. ask: what song are you singing? why this song? do you even know the words? what memories are associated with this song/tune?

    2. you are having a rough day, or you are frustrated while standing in line. you decide to sing to yourself to pass the time or calm yourself down. do you have a regular song for this?

    SING!

    -brought to you by random thought from shamir's head